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State Of Being


hurt, despised and rejected
cast off, thrown out and deflected
a loss that amounts to deep sorrow
a feeling there is no tomorrow

a wish to strike back at all cost
a wish to regain what was lost
conflicting emotions which reign
no solutions in sight for this pain

hanging on now to mere threads
what dignity's left is in shreds
all missiles of loathing deployed
a core sense of self is destroyed

tonight will be filled with dread
the next day might be spent in bed
with loneliness under cover
a bitter, discarded lover
Dec/27/2008, 11:37 pm Link to this post  
 
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Thank you singingbird for putting into words that which I am not capable of, but where in every word, sentence I recognize my own agony and pain. It expresses the total devastation that N's leave behind.

From bitter to better someone wrote and I wish you that and also that one they you will be healed from this tormenting pain.

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Thank you so much, "Damaged goods", for the kind response to my poem.
(Ah.... your [sign in to see URL] [sign in to see URL] state of MY being for so long now as well)

When I wrote those words just about 3 years ago now...
I was in such a state of pain and numbness at the same time.
I had very few people I could talk to in order to vent the fury, self-loathing and anguish coursing through me on a daily basis!

Writing was (and still remains) the best outlet for all those troubled emotions I was experiencing at the time.

That was just before I found a therapist (a wonderful, empathetic and compassionate soul, thank goodness)

3 years later..
I am still on the bumpy road to recovery and I continue therapy, writing, walking and finally (slowly but surely) reaching out to others for connection and mutual support.

I wish for you peace of mind and heart...
The restoration of balance and inner calm...
And the return to some semblance of serenity and optimism that things will get better with time.
All these things which I myself still strive towards in my own daily existence.

May we all find courage and strength to move on and move forward.

I will sign off with one of my (current) favorite quotations:

"What doesn't kills us makes us stronger"
Friedrich Nietzsche

Take good care of yourself and be well.

"singingbird"
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