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Put on the Armor of God, this is my Daily Prayer


Hello Everybody... I'm new here... and have been thoroughly researching NPD... and where my past relationship was only a year and half (I discovered the serious nature and of NPD about a year into this relationship) and despite my being of strong body and mind... my ex-gf to my own disbelief has caused serious damage so I now am trying to rebuild and rectify the damaged sectors of my mind... I have always had a strong relationship with God which unfortunately I allowed her to distance me from Him as well as distanced myself from other family and friends... The following is the Armor of God... It is an extremely powerful prayer that has helped me tremendously although I'm still in Shock and Awe from what has happened and to a point still happening even though I broke up with her about one month ago... I share with you this very powerful prayer and pray with you that you heal!

My Father, Almighty God
You are awe-inspiring. You are magnificent and mighty. Your name holds more authority than I could ever conceive. You are stronger than I could ever dream. You are wiser than I could ever comprehend. You are more loving and compassionate than I could ever [sign in to see URL] are God. You are above all. Thank you for the powerful armor that you give to me.
 
I come this day to put on the Belt of Truth.
I acknowledge that I need truth. I need to be dedicated to truth. I need to follow the truth of your Word. Lord, I need to make reading your Word a priority in my life. If I sincerely open my mind to your Word, then I will see the truth about what I need to increase in my life and what I need to decrease in my life. As I am praying this prayer, I realize that the enemy of my soul wants to condemn me for my failures. I declare that I will not let the enemy condemn me for my lack of success, because you are pleased with me when I try. You want me to learn to be content in doing my best. You want me to love myself anyway, just as you do.
 
I put on the Breastplate of Righteousness.
I acknowledge that I am able to wear this breastplate because Jesus took my sin and gave me his righteousness.

Lord, I will remind myself today of the enormous price Jesus paid so that I could be set free. Jesus did not take sin lightly, and I will not take sin lightly. I will show my respect for you, Lord, by seeking to obey you and seeking to please you this day.
 
I put on the Shoes of Peace.
I thank you for the peace I have about my future home in heaven. I feel restful and serene when I think about the glorious place where I will spend eternity. Jesus told us that he gives us his peace. Father God, I want to feel peace in my daily life. I want to feel calm and content as I move through my day. By the power of Jesus Christ, I declare that today I will grow in my ability to live in peace. I will reject worry and fear. I will remember to trust you through all the circumstances of my day. I will not be moved by what I see or hear. I WILL be moved by what the Bible says. Your promises are true. Your promises are backed by the honor of your name.
 
I put on the Helmet of Salvation.
I thank you for my eternal salvation, and I thank you for the saving power of Jesus Christ that daily works in my life - helping me to defeat sin and helping me to put on the love of Christ. Thank you that you are renewing my mind and showing me how to defeat my wrong thoughts and wrong attitudes. Thank you that you are taking me from the way I have always been to the godly way I can be through the power of Jesus Christ.
 
I pick up the Shield of Faith.
I will feed my faith today. My faith will grow stronger this day. I will meditate on your promises to take care of me. When the enemy sends fiery darts my way - in order to discourage me or get me to doubt you - I will raise my shield of faith and deflect his attacks. My shield is a shield of confidence that you, God, are able to take care of me. I will continually remind myself of your faithfulness. Lord, I will be unwavering in my devotion to you this day.
 
I pick up the Sword of the Spirit which is the Word of God.
I will give voice to the Word of God today. I will become more and more comfortable speaking out Scripture.

Lord, I will remind myself that when I speak your Scriptures, your power is unleashed. You have given believers words that will change the world. Lord, I dedicate my mouth to you. I want all my words to please you. Help me to gain greater control over my tongue. I declare that today I will use my tongue to bless others, and I will avoid strife and unnecessary conflict. Father, as I leave this time of prayer, I am going to be a freshly focused follower of Jesus Christ!
 
In the name of the Heavenly Father, the Holy Spirit, & Almighty God!
 
Amen
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This is a beautiful Prayer. Thank you for sharing it with us. I'm so glad you found us here emoticon

One thing that narcs do is keep us from the things, places or people we love. We don't see it until those relationships are severed. I'm glad that you have your faith back and your relationship with God. No one has the right to take these things from us.

Stick around here and find the peace here that helps us heal.





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I have also been with a narcissist and we were engaged to be married. I was with him for 2 1/2 years. The "most" horrid thing about this narcissist is he "claimed" to be a "full blown" [sign in to see URL] Jesus in all his ways. He did, however, teach me about the Bible and other "positive" things but I also lived with him. He did seem like the person the Good Lord sent me because when I met him, I was "highly" addicted to pills. He took me in and totally love-bombed me. I thought it was my "job" from the Lord to help him through his troubles, as he "helped" me through my addiction, but after some time, the abuse was intensified. Gosh, that "gaslighting" is so "painful" and "deceiving". Each time, more painful. My faith has been waivered and I need "healing" badly. I do thank you for your prayers and know that the Lord will help but I need to reach out for even more help! He also abused me "spiritually" and indicated if I left him, which I did twice, God was going to punish me. I have been away for him for about a month now and he has "completely discarded" me for "another" woman. But I was the "one" the Good Lord sent him - what a pathological "liar" and "deceiver". I hurt and my self-esteem (already low) is on the brink. I also feel like medicating again to ease the pain and need "healing". Thank you for posting this! It was something I truly needed to hear! Man, these guys are "unbelievably" great at what they do!
God Bless You...
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Hi, my name is EmmaLoudevastated. I am also new here. I read your beautiful prayer and like it very much. I, just 7 months ago, walked away from a psychological abusive husband. I knew that things were getting bad in my relationship but only after being told what was happening was wrong did I realize that I was being abused and only after a friend shared with me, did I realize that I was being psychologically abused. I still have not fully realized the extent of the abuse and am devastated that the man I married and loved could do those awful things to me. He was a psychopath and narcissist and possibly also a sociopath. He separated me first from friends, then Church family and tried to separate me from God (but that did not work, at least in the beginning) and finally started separating me from family. I am still trying to comprehend and find out the extent of this abuse.

Even after separating from him, I am having to pay the consequence of being married to him. I am still not totally accepted in my family, including extended family, not back to where I was with God, and having to deal a lot with the emotional side of this mess.

I hope that eventually I will come out a stronger individual, but some days I wonder what my future holds. I am dealing with a lot of anxiety and depression.

I would be interested in anything anyone would like to tell me.

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Hello EmmaLou,
I just saw your post and wanted to reply to you. My heart and prayers go out to you as I was "engaged" but never "married" to the Narcissist in my life but I do KNOW the "unbelievable" pain that you feel. I just realized that I am the very same person (Johnglen15) who wrote on this runboard on 2/7/15 (2 years ago to this day) and God has definitely brought me through this "life-changing" event much stronger and wiser than I have ever been. I have not seen or spoken to my ex for 2 years now and I have GROWN so much. To a woman who had very "little" self-esteem to someone who really "loves" herself now and is developing a personal relationship with Jesus that no one can take away from me. I just continue to pray for my ex and ask God to guide me in any and all decisions I make and he does and he will for you too. Just keep your eyes focused on God and let him walk you through this painful process. I just had to "Let Go" and "Let God"... There is HOPE and it DOES GET [sign in to see URL] Promise!

I do hope this helps you, [sign in to see URL] can write back if you would [sign in to see URL] will be more than happy to help you in anyway I [sign in to see URL]'m praying for you, EmmaLou...
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Hi and thanks for writing back. One of the hardest things that I am currently dealing with is that in some way I still love my husband even with everything that went on. There is probably not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. I am very concerned about his direction in life and the path he has chosen to go down. I hope and I pray for him that he wakes up before it is to late.

Also I am dealing with incredible loneliness. While I was married I was with him pretty much 24/7 and to be thrust into living alone again has been not easy.

Please respond. Especially if you have any suggestions for dealing with these things.
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Hello EmmaLou,
Thank you for writing back. I COMPLETELY understand as I still love this man also - like I've never loved a man before. He, in his own way, was/is a remarkable man with a VERY "dark" past. Charming, Funny, Handsome, etc. but Dangerous for me and others. Now, I don't claim to know everything but what I do involve myself with on a DAILY basis is my personal relationship with Jesus. It may sound quite strange to you but this "crazy" relationship has pushed me MUCH closer to God because of my and "his" brokenness. Yes, the Narcissist do tend to go down a VERY destructive path!

I was also with my ex-fiancé 24/7 and felt "secure" and very "dependent" on him BUT now that I've been away from him for almost 2 years with NO CONTACT whatsoever, I see where God has brought me. I have grown so much and actually LOVE myself now (though I never thought I could - EVEN before I met him). Anyway, I don't know how familiar you are with Jesus and the Bible but I am always reading scripture now plus I watch a lot of Dr. Charles Stanley (a Baptist preacher) with InTouch Ministries. What I hope you realize is that unfortunately - YOU cannot save him from his destruction BUT God can! If you are a truly "spiritual" person and believe in what the Bible says, you will realize that NOTHING happens by accident. That the good Lord leads us at times down some dark, lonely roads in order to let us get to know HIM - JUST you and him because I truly believe God has a plan in EVERYTHING we go through. There is nothing you can do at this time but COMPLETELY SURRENDER to God and give him this relationship. Our Narcissists are NOT WELL - they are SICK people and in our own way, so are we! But I do know that you TRULY love him as I did too. My love has been UNCONDITIONAL in so many [sign in to see URL] the MOST DIFFICULT thing to do is surrender it and begin to pray for him and yourself. Ask God to help him with the "dark" pain he has inside. We or you CANNOT fix [sign in to see URL] me, I tried and failed EVERYTIME while walking away with more PAIN AND HEARTACHE. Their pain is unimaginable and I have cried 3 years for him - we kept breaking up and then back together. Also, do you know about Narcissist Personality Disorder? Do you believe he TRULY suffers from it? If you don't know much about it then study it some but don't get engulfed by it. His mannerism will begin to make sense. Then, I would begin to pray for him and also ask God what he wants you to do (for me - God clearly wanted me to distance myself from him) but I kept going back and the pain became UNBEARABLE...

Keep in touch with me and I will help you in anyway I can. Feel free to ask me questions about this - I have LEARNED so much about NPD (Narcisstic Personality Disorder). Also Melanie Tonie-Evans has a website and you can read and learn a lot from her - she was married to 2 Narcissists and now has her own talkshow/website and has THRIVED. Her website is: [sign in to see URL]. I just didn't really concern myself with Quantum Healing. I knew exactly where my healing would come from! God Bless You and let me know if I can be of further help...

Remember - NOTHING happens by accident...

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